Imprints of time...

Memories are like quicksand,
You sink as you try to claw.
Futile energy that you spend,
Is nothing, but the only flaw.
If you stay frozen in time,
refusing, to move along.
Stuck in same mould of mourning,
Stuck by the same old song.
You'll get nothing, but the pain,
With nails of past, piercing through
New, timeless memories, getting lost in vain,
To find one day, you are lost in too.
Give Hourglass it's deserved chance,
Wait for all the sand to funnel through.
Not only you'd surface up unscathed,
Time will see, that you heal up too.
Life goes on and so it will,
But you have to live, to tell the tale.
Of your love, that time couldn't kill,
Of your love, that time couldn't fail...

Yet...

Why do we have to make hardest of choices?
Why do we snub, anguished inner voices?
How do I stop this fight of mind and heart?
HYow can I sawllow reality, while it taste so tart?
Why do I have to live with a guilt of wrong?
Why would I pretend to overhear, my fav. song?
How can I tell, I won't regret this years later?
How can I just accept, what my fate, seems to cater?
Why am I so lost and lost again, like never before?
Why can't I just let someone else through that door?
How am I going to get over a feeling so strong?
How am I going to keep these hopes alive, alive so long?
yet
I know I'll make hardest of those choices.
And yes I'll snub once again, all inner voices.
Heart will be down on knees, mind will prevail.
Reality will be gulped down, efforts no avail.
Maybe I'll live and guilt will just fade away.
While I still hum that song, each night and day.
Regret lasts lifetime; and so will this one be.
Accepting my fate with whatever, life has for me.
Lost is just a word; it's path to what destiny hold.
Someone will knock that door again, to a heart so cold.
Feelings are like frangrance, they grow old with years.
And it's only hopes that I'll live by, to dispel my fears.

Flimsy Line Of Smoke

Faril trail of smoke from ciggrette end
Thats what I am today
Result of someone's life wasted on me
and mine wasted on theirs.
We are poision to each other,
yet addicted;
and meaningless without each other.
Sounds so incoherent.
But, madness and obsessions are never sane.
Fretting and insane, I am looking for an escape
I am trying to dream, beyond my madness
help.
I guess, it's too late.
Kill me. Anyway, I'm going to consume myself!
Adieu carefree world. See you in hell...

Nothing Left To Say...

Eyes, fixed on nothingness
because there's nothing left to see
mind wondering about, time I have left
as there's nothing more, I'd want to be

wandering around in same old circles
counting eternal time, each night and day
It's not that, my lips are sealed with vows
It's just that, today I have nothing left to say

Reason

When empty heart takes over mind,
When drapes of insanity turns me blind.
And i am hanging on hopes just by the seam,
You are my reason for everything I dream.
You are my reason for living through days,
You are the reason for my crazy ways.
You are my sunshine for morning so bright,
In darkest hour, my eternal light.
And then you are not just a reason anymore,
But my "smile" itself, which widens more and more.