Here I come...

Adieu, my insane soul.

All holes healed
all regrets forsaken
all mistakes forgiven
and no offence taken
I stand here to begin new story
standing grinning amidst my dreamt glory
I shall begin again, once and for all
Not crippled by fear, not afraid to fall.
Ready to evince the power of "One"
hold on crazy world, here I come!

Momentory Lapse Of Reason....

Am just old confetti on the floor,
Nothing, but a ripple on the shore.
Rolling tear of that hapless fate,
Abuse of that incessant hate.
Rubber smell, of a black skid mark.
Keyhole view of that world so dark.
Flimsy line of smoke in soot sky,
Pain fused, in that imminent sigh.
Cold heart, behind that brutal face,
Frigid feelings, trapped in empty case.
I am sweat of that wasted will,
Just a scratch, by a dried up quill.
Endless war of heart and mind,
I am that lost; precious find.
Wounded bird's broken flight,
Reason for a crippled's plight.
Crunch of dried twig in the autum season,
Stupor of that hated treason,
I am your momentory lapse of reason.

Kill me, or I shall consume you.

You...

Sleep, where have you gone?
Pain, will you break with dawn?
Hate, will you die with me?
Greed, why do you have to be?
Anger, will you eat me hollow?
Hope, can i just follow?
Boredome, why do you just lie?
Insanity, will you ever die?
Sorrow, why are you still here?
Obsession, why do you still care?
Reality will you bite again?
Dreams will you be lost in vain?
Fears will you stop screaming?
Strengths will you ever start teaming?
Love, why were you ever born?
You!! did you come; just to be gone....?

Someone, Rescue Me. Please...

I am Back!

I want to be liberated
but I am not waiting anymore
living life by my own rules
I have finally spotted the door
Dear soul, I am on my feet again
looking up to a good life,
let fears, rot in pain
Hey World! I am back
For good, for revenge
As I sway in dance of glory
stay put! I'll make it big soon... :-D

Goodbye!

Time is running out,
When I see how far still.
Feelings build inside,
While I am stuck by this quill.
Time is mocking,
As I seem to loose.
And haunting sound of hollow laugh,
As I decide what to choose.
Choose, one I have loved,
Over and over again, just to let go.
Or the ones who loved me forever,
With all obligations and things I owe.
Time has come
And it'll come again
To let it go
And to let it be.
To be so,
And to let love see.
See through time,
And see through me,
To crumble inside,
Yet live to be.
Cause it won't die,
Now or ever.
And no matter how I try,
I'll still love forever.
Time has come,
To make that choice.
With dwelled up eyes,
And dampened voice.
I've chosen to slay,
My love; because it's mine.
And light up those wrinkeled faces,
while they buy their time.
AS I let go,
My heart feels mauled.
Now nowhere to go,
Finally time has stalled.
~Goodebye.

Autum Of My Life

The autums of my life
have never lasted
but then
they never end too

No matter what I am bestowed with,
in the end
I still hate
what I am going through

It's not the love
i desire
It's not attention
I beseech

It's mere acceptance
that I crave for
and it's just friendly gaze
that I need.

Can you give me that?
Maybe not..
Will you ever be there
Maybe never

Just walk down
that paved path of your life
while I hunt mine
now and forever

This is another autum of my life
I look dead but I am not
maybe it's those last dangling leaves
but thats still something, I have got.

Don't ask me ever again
how I am taking the pain
because if you really cared
you wouldn't take so long, to ask again.

The Show

The devil in me has something to say...

---

I think she wouldn't care enough,
I think, I wouldn't dare enough.
It's depressing when illusion is over,
You are nothing but a four leafed clover.
Just a bunch of chemical reactions worth dime,
Happening to stop, in any fraction of time.
It's absolutely infuriating to feel this way,
Lost and helpless, with not much to say.
God chose you with impulse or much muse,
Or probably because you were of no use.
Doesn't matter, because as his puppet you are born,
And as long as he enjoy, the show must go on....

---

F.U.B.A.R

lock yourself up, else you won't make it
keep it to yourself, this world can't take it
smile if you can, else please try to fake it
just deal with reality, don't try to rake it

now is not the time; you are alone
don't wait anymore, they are gone
chill is not in the air, but in your bone
it's bells of omen, not your phone

you aren't dreaming, wake up dear soul
I am in agony, because there's still a hole
as all the otiose time goes by, just let it roll
cause life's a torn shoe and you?? just battered sole!

lost and wandring we have come so far
all the dwelled up tears are just at par
save them for re-use, in that glossy jar
cause eyes will dry up, as my life will go FUBAR.

Want...

i want, but i cant ... let go
i want, but it cant ... be so
i want, but you won't ... let it be
i want, but I won't ... let me see

You want, but you cant ... say so
You want, but it cant ... just go
You want, but i won't ... let me be
you want, but you won't ... let it see.

what are we doing to ourselves? Or is it that i am just dreaming? Wake me.. or worse still, let me sleep.

God and Satan

The bright blue fire
The burning flames
and my burning feelings
with manipulative games
magical potion of love
that never cease working
scattered random thoughts
with apprehension lurking
times when i'd kill her
times when i'd kill for her
can't live with, can't live without
can't stand her smile, hate that pout
words repeated, and things never told
insane. have Never been so cold.
I love it. Frigidness and punch-drunk
call what may; man, bloke or punk
lost, dazed with scatty smile
am both, god and satan. wise yet senile....

Life has paid off..

it's a wierd mind full of scum,
sore, blistered; absolutely numb.
in there, you still talk to me
but not what it used to be.

i am hoping you make my wishes for me,
i plead to god, as he just sits and see.
but nothing better than praying empty skies,
as if in void; floats cloud made of lies.

how i wish someone would listen me, too,
and someone would help, see me through.
but seems like i have finally gone mad
and life has paid off, as it go worse from bad.

Swimming in Tears

i am just another fish in bowl, alas!
swimming in circles, always hitting the glass
incarcerated for life, away from hope and dreams
all i hear is, water bubble, through agonized screams.

with beady eyes, as i gape at blinding lights,
vibrant colors and those breathtaking sights
i live, mundane life, amidst my fears
water long dried, i now swim in my tears.

Waiting...

i kept waiting
you never came
and still all this love
what a shame....

Time to go!

Help!

drapes of ignorance
pulled over mind
i fumble for my chance
as i stumble blind...

help me..

Dedicated to GOD.

dedicated to :: GOD

who stood by me
then, now and always
who always helped me see
through darkest of my days
don't believe he's divine
but just a slob like me & you
one who often crossed the line
and then needed "us" to see him through ...

I fogive you. But i still don't know what to do? :-D

Wish I could write like that...

Friends...

The cheap lunatics with ideas as crazy as they are,
Pouring wickedness all the way, keeping dull days real far.
and yet when you are caught to be spanked on your only butt,
They will shove in theirs too, with all the in-comprehendible gut!

Billowing with madness no matter, stoned or sane,
Sticking up a smile, even when they wince in pain.
Good with words, to pull off even worst, with their wit,
So that you don't look like a dork; while u just ate the grit.

Teetotaler, sad, sick, sadist with raunchiest of joke,
Or eccentric, egoist, dullard and biggest of all bloke.
No matter who and what they are, you just can't look down on them
‘Cause they were the one, who kept you hanging; when whole world gave a DAMN!!

Atomic Sauce

Sometimes it's atomic life with saucy moments,
And sometimes saucy life with atomic elements.
But, do i care, whether mine is wretched or bliss,
All i love is solitary world, marked by territorial piss.

As that truly amazing sound of pouring vodka, hits my ear,
I hang on to all the good things, miles away from fear.
With drums, guitar, bass and smoke, i sit alone galloping in dark,
And reciprocating world of happy memories, act as momentary spark.

In freckled frenzy as i cease to think,
Staring into void; probably, I forgot to blink.
Lunatic smile engraved, protuberantly on face,
I feel dazed and blurred, dwelling in euphoriatic place.

It never last and i know it never will,
Blotching & fading away, like ink in old quill.
Yet i have learned not to fear with lot less to care,
Cause it's just senile life; using gas to douse the flare.

And out of rage, relish and all the love and hate,
Served neatly, all i see is; insanity in my plate.
Staring emptiness; eyes sparkling with glint and gloss,
Once again, i feel triumphantly insane, dripping in atomic sauce...